Gray Day #3

so - this is the third day in a row that has been gray, overcast, gloomy and more than a little bit chilly.
Now, i love fall. I really do. But I love the crisp, autumn days with SUN. I mean i am not a sun goddess by any strech of the imagination, but if i don't get some soon i am just going to fade away. which would be pretty impressive given my already pale existence.

what else is going on?
things are developing on the boy front. rather interesting actually. talked to st. louis -- his name is david, for the record. which was great. totally made me smile. i am coninutely amazed at how many things we have in common.
crazy.
we shall see. of course, now everyone wants to know "when are you going to meet him". um, hello. lets not rush into anything. this is me we are talking about.

watched the debates last night. un-impressive. from both sides. i would have liked to have seen kerry get a little more assertive with "W". but we are down to the last 3 weeks. Thanks god. i mean i have an opinion on how i think things should work out, but i cannot wait for all of this to be over for another 3 years.

i have a massage tonight, and at this point, i am just counting the minutes until i go. this gray-ness has taken any energy out of me.

Twist of fate...?

So things have gotten pretty interesting round about here. Ok - nothing that dramatic, but good for a change. I went on my date with one of the online boys that lives here in DSM. And he was a nice guy, but I am afraid no sparky-spark. And then, that very night that I got back from the aforementioned sparkless date, I got an email from Mr. St. Louis. Some of you may not remember him. Allow me to refresh your memories....we got along really well, definitely had something going and he met someone locally. I thought no ill of it. Couldn't blame him really. Date someone right in front of you or keep emailing some random a state and a half away. No brainer. But anyway... he let me know that he was back in the "scene" as it were. I really hate that statement. What scene? Are we actors? posing for some ego centric director to tell us where to go? what to do?
rambling again.
apologies.

So we have been emailing like fiends ever since. I am not sure that I can write something to him that is less than at least 4 paragraphs long. And he is the same way. I dunno. It is so weird. We agree on SO much. Have a lot in common. I am just waiting for the bottom to drop out. I mean, it is the jaded bitter woman in me, but come on...seems too easy. We are supposed to talk sometime this week - he is on vacation with friends and wants to call me while on vacation? who does that? I guess we will see where this crazy journey takes me.
So scary, exciting, cool... i really don't know how else to take it.

ok- also started the diet. Lost 7 lbs so far. Not great, but getting there. Also started back to the yoga classes. 3 times a week. Things are going well.

Eeek.
scary when things are going well.

Patience is NOT a virtue

at least not one that i am familiar with. this whole "mom has cancer thing" has turned into one long session in limbo. first they move the tests, then they tell us 24 hours for results, then it is the weekend, then they schedule an appointment to review the results and we still know NOTHING!!! ugh. soooper annoying. i just want to know what is going on so i can get myself prepared for the next few months, treatment, all that stuff. as a result, my motivation to get things i SHOULD be thinking about done is lacking.
A lot.

one postive note this week. Julie got her wedding pics posted up to the internet.
this photographer is absolutely amazing. everything about them is fantastic. they literally brought tears to my eyes they were so well done. Of course, i can buy what i want, and so the list is growing. they are really gorgeous.

the boy thing is moving forward, but i am getting a little annoyed. i don't know. i feel like things are just so busy right now that making time for things just seems like more work than i am willing to give. either that, or i am just looking for excuses not to move forward on any of this.
jury is still out. will keep you posted, natch.

Life on a Chain

Ok- I swore that i was going to do a better job on getting this out and in a timely manner.
Things have just been a little crazy. I was in DC pratically all summer. The wedding was amazing. I of course, lost it during the toast. I swore to myself that I wouldn't... but alas, i failed.
Julie & Scott were inspiring. It really was great. http://www.hollandphotoarts.com/Julie-Scott/
So had just gotten back (missed Sturgis this year :( ) and was getting back into the swing of things when a few things went down.
1- Heather is moving to Chicago. No surprise really. She is looking for a job there and will be gone as soon as she gets something.
2- My car got keyed. That ruled.
3- My mom has cancer again.

The last one kind of got to me. Not sure what she has. There are a whole slew of tests that they are going to run her through tomorrow. My worst fear is that it is bone cancer. That stuff is nasty. So I am pretty pissed. I have to think that once is enough. I mean, I know that this is nothing new for a lot of families, but man. The fates are not being kind. Until I know what we are dealing with, I am not really allowing myself to get upset about it. Seems a waste at this point.
Just sucks. Majorily. Of course, I have done the whole "worst case scenario" thinking and about burst into tears just thinking about it. Sounds so "oh pity me" but when I got the call, I really just wanted someone to hug. And there was no one there.

ON that note, the online thing is moving forward ok... I actually have been talking (ok, well emailing) some guys that live in DSM. Which of course means, at some point I have to meet them. That part is kinda freaking me out. Not sure why.... ? It would seem to be the natural evolution for this sort of thing. Meet, talk ... HANG OUT. But no, not me... I have to get all wigged out about it.

Work is good. Keeping busy. Some days I just want to scream. People can be so fucking dumb.
That is all I can say. Dumb, Dumb, Dumb..... But it is keeping me busy... and everyone else that i know.

Ok- that is plenty for today. I will keep this more current. I SWEAR IT!!!!

um, i suck and i know it

it has been a little while. really it has been since i started the new job. i have been just a smidge busy with that. plus 3 birthday parties that i either hosted or went out of town for, one couples shower in DC and i am sure there is other crap as well.

motivation is in the toilet today.
i just want to go sleep.
i should have loads to tell you about but somehow, just not feeling the love.

later.

And things were going so well....

Ok, ok.
I know that it has been a little while since I have put anything out. i suck.
Just had the last days at the old job, leaving for the beach and then the new job. been kinda busy.

Vacation was amazing. Got more sun than i should have, spent WAY more money than i should have and drank more than i should have.
Those things combined = one hell of a good time at the beach.
Julie had fun. We returned her in one piece to scott, a little worse for the wear but with no major damage.

And then,new job. Dove in head first, through the spiraling death circle and through the flames of the lion tamer.
Holy crap there is a ton of work here to do.

Things were going so well....


Then, the following happens:
1. roommate tells me he is moving out, need to find replacement
2. boy on e-harmony that i have been totally digging, has started dating someone in the town he lives in.

Crap and crap.
Kinda surprised about jared. i knew that randy was looking for someplace, but i did not expect him to move out so soon. go figure. so now, re-commencing the roommate search.
gack
gack
& gack.

seriously bummed about the guy. i mean in all fairness, you have to jump when opportunity presents itself. and he does live in st. louis, but man.
i can't even meet people online successfully?
jesus, i give up.


and i am pms'y.
this does not make for a good day.
and all my friends are all smarmy and happy-freakin-couples. i can't get away from all the snarky crap.

ms smith, party of one?
yes, your table is ready.

ok - maybe being a smidge dramatic, but not by much.

have ga-zillion tons of work to do, must get back to it.

lame duck

so. give the notice. and all the sudden, no one seems to need me for anything.
kinda nice, but kinda a pain. why am i showing up? to surf? twiddle my thumbs? make everyone feel better??

heading out to the beach in a week. can't wait for that. seriously.
need some R&R that is not here. i need to be much further than a half day drive from somewhere. and, i shall accomplish that.
and the birthday is right around the corner.
gonna be 29.
excuse me? 29? me?
ugh.

going to be pouring wine at a wine tasting tonight. should be fun. lots of people and i get to drink the whole time.
ROCK STAR!
it will be a chance to maybe meet some new people and go from there.
should be fun either way.
so now my challenge is to find ways to keep myself occupied and at least ostensibily looking like i am doing something.
will keep you posted.

You must be THIS high to ride...

And the rollercoaster takes another death defying plunge down the spiral corkscrew of terror.

I have taken a new job.
At my old company.
Odd.
Weird.
Surreal.
Good.

Gave my notice to the old shop yesterday. it actually went pretty well. there is some stuff brewing here that has me less than excitited. i think that my exit is about as well timed as it could be.
of course now, i have no, zero, nada, zilch, desire to be here. just kinda putzing around and getting stuff organized and cleaning out the desk.

what else? Still working the online thing. It is harder than i thought. i don't answer every day, so i feel like some of this is becoming really drawn out. patience, as i have indicated in the past is not one of my finer points. but getting to know a few of them a little better. although i am little freaked out about meeting anyone. we shall see.
getting pumped for the beach. can't wait to spend a few days in the surf. i will be blinding everyone with my whiteness, but, will have a good time.
just need to go get my plane ticket.. will do that today. have to go to the airport to use my voucher. can't do it online. which is annoying. let me tell you.

heather and sebastian had a great time in FL. apparently they have taken their relationship to the "next level". They are in love.... aahhh, sigh, hearts flutter.
gack.
no, really. good for them. just me being a little bitter.
all good.

i am off to avoid work and ponder the question i have been asked by one of my "matches"... what is the most interesting thing about yourself? hard one.let me tell you.

Deja Vu

Well, crazy of craziness.
I have accepted a position at my old offices. all new job, new boss, in fact none of the upper management team from when i was there is still around.
looking forward to it.
NO MORE CUSTOMERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Amen to that. Huge, deal. HUGE, BIG, HUGE.

$$ is good. Will be able to wear jeans to work... whenever i want. Still downtown, so no change on the commute. all in all good stuff.
now of course, i just have to give my notice here.
i hate that. I really,really hate it.
but it has to be done. will take care of it on tuesday. i have not signed anything yet for LightEdge (new name even...weird). and we have a long weekend coming up.. so tuesday it is.
i am excitited.

plus, had some contact from one of the guys from the online gig. seems pretty cool.
we shall see where it all goes.

so, i am already begining to suffer from short timers disease.
plus, it is right before a long weekend, so no one ever wants to work.
i am thinking about taking off at about 3:30 and working from home.

plus, I have a massage tonight.
i can't wait.
my massuese rocks.
a lot. she turns me into a pile of goo and i love it.

party of one

i am officially in a funk.
not particularly sure as to why. on the surface things are going well. had another round of interviews back at my old stomping grounds. that was interesting. things look promising there. although giving my notice here will basically suck.
but, hey. its work, nothing personal. i do want to chat with Mr. C should something come down the pipe this week.

also, not really excitied about the eharmony prospects. i don't know what i was expecting, but i am not really "clicking" with any one person. although, there is the one guy in spokane that seems pretty cool. although, i could see him having a more type-a side to him. he is a volleyball coach... cool. but still not sure. i threw him a little meghan sarcasm in my last round of questions. we shall see how he responds.
but, i was hoping maybe something would come of the local guys, and so far nothing.
i guess patience has never been one of my stronger suites, so there you go.
i just don't want to waste my time or their time. i have gotten a lot better about closing people out upfront. kinda harsh, but not really.
They have done it to me, and i am not losing sleep over it.
who knows. like i said, kinda in a funk. could be the constant deluge of rain that we have been so fortunate to get. We have had more extreme weather in the last 4 days, than i can remember in a long time.
ugh.

either pigs were flying and i missed it, or hell has in fact, frozen over

Nate's engaged.

Just typing that is REALLY weird.
i mean this was the guy that swore off kids, marriage the whole nine yards.
And just last week... LAST WEEK. was telling me he was looking for rings.
so, somewhere between looking last week, we have moved on to buying and proposing.

holy crap.

don't get me wrong, this is a GREAT guy. i love him dearly. it just seems a little odd.
ok. a lot odd.

what else?
the eharmony thing is moving along. no clear leaders yet... still weeding all of them out.
but i get the feeling my friends are not taking this seriously.
1. they want me to buy a tazer (sp?) and carry it with me and
2. they all just want to know when the first date is.

ok - a tazer? gimmie a freakin' break. just because i meet guys this way does not make them looney. i will know more about these guys before i go out with them than 99% of people who meet at a bar and end up having sex....

This is more than just going out on a date. i don't think they get it. this was/is a HUGE step for me, and i get the feeling that they don't view it this way.

kinda sucks when you are putting yourself out there and not getting all the support you think you should.

and did i mention that olson got engaged??
holy shit.
i mean, really.
we are having drinks tonight and he is going to give me the low down.


oh - and the fast started yesterday. i think it will be more of a liquid diet with one meal a day... at least for the first few days. Taking a little getting used to. either that, or i have less self control than i thought.

friday, Friday, FRIDAY

Newsflash: It's friday.
Woot.

Weekend here i come. Actually looking forward to having a whole weekend with no obligations, social events or anything. Just gonna chill at the homestead, get some stuff done around the house and go from there.
good times.

well, we are off to the eHarmony races as it were. the first day was kinda scary... no matches! i mean, i know i have had a tough time meeting people in DSM, but NO ONE in the whole world????
fear not little campers, those whirring big black computer boxes started finding me men-folk to communicate with.
all of the first ones were at least a state or two away. which is not a bad thing. had to close one out already... he just seemed a little TOO serious for me. round two brought me several men,closer in age and in the metro area. so, they have piqued my interest a little. i guess we shall see how this all plays out. i tell you one thing, these guys are not messing around. we cut right to the chase with the questions, will you relocate? how many kids do you want to have? are you verbally intimate?
ouch. they have made me think a little. which i would guess is the upside to this whole deal. you might get a mate, but you will for sure be forced to look a little closer at what you want out of life and what is really important to you. so far, so good. no one has really "caught my eye" which would actually be impossible b/c no one has their pics up until after a certain level of communication is reached. so there is this weird paradox here. you are being as brutally honest and forthright about you innermost desires and wants and you are giving this information to someone you could not pick out of a crowd.
i keep thinking as i walk the skywalk, if any of the boys i pass could be one of the "matches".
cheese head, i know.
what else?? usual crap. work is slow/busy. i am either at mach-10 or twiddling my thumbs. i hope to find the happy medium someday.

get the whole house to myself all weekend. WOOT! naked housecleaning here i come.
actually, i have never cleaned the house naked... perhaps this is the weekend to try it.
can't hurt.

hm.
we shall see.

beach weekend is coming up soon. can't wait. few days of r&r, lots of drinking and music. should be a blast.
need to drop about 15lbs before i go out. i have 3 weeks. i think i can do it. i am starting my fast tonight/tomorrow...
i just feel like two ton tessie right now.

ok- i think that is all i have to report at this point.
more later.
out

Taking the plunge

Well, i have done it.
either this marks the end of civilization as i know it or some sort of ephiany.
Not sure which.

i have signed on to an online dating service.

gasp,
oh- and i know it has been a while since i have posted. been busy doing nothing, but something.


yes.
eharmony.com. i was a little worried at first since it struck me a as a really conservative site, but after going through the questions, i changed my mind. i guess time will tell. i only signed up for a month, so we shall see. i just got tired of being the only single person around. being, 3rd, 5th, 7th wheel is really not so much fun. and it really has come to that. everyone i know is in a realtionship.

the irony is as i am doing this, i have come to the conclusion that married men are kinda slime buckets.
i say this due to the fact that i have watched firsthand as a number of married men just don't care about the fact that they are supposed to be loyal. maybe i am some sort of relic, but cheating to me is one of the biggest insults that a realtionship can garner.
i have heard the, "we have an open relationship" line tossed around. seems a little too easy to me.

possibly, i am overreacting. but i don't think so.

what else, my boss is leaving the company. as this is a MAJOR deal, i have begun searching for new jobs. the one cool potential... he has a history of taking people with him when he moves to new companies. he has interviews in Atlanta, dallas and outside of San francisco. i would go to any of those places. of course, it would be a few months before anything would come of it, but hey...
might be the kick i need to get out of DSM.

i am also going to start a new diet this week. i have to do something. i really don't like my body right now.
i will see how this goes. Thursday is go day.

aside from that, it is a rainy, dark overcast day here and my motivation is a little lacking.
ok -- a lot lacking. i am curious to see who i get matched up with so i keep checking the website.
um, hello freak....

ok, out.

a house for two

so jared moved in over the last week.
house is somewhere between organized and complete chaos.
we are getting there. one room at a time.
kinda odd getting used to someone else around the house again, but i think overall this is a good fit.
will keep everyone posted on how the new "domesticity" is going.

what else?
went to omaha for a quick overnight vist. old boss was turning 40. probably would not have gone, but he married one of my old friends and she was throwing the party. good time. very surreal. saw a bunch of people i have not seen in like 6-7 years. and we all used to work in the restaurant together. so basically, we were a bunch of stupid 22/23 year olds, drinking till all hours of the evening and generally living some sort of soap opera lifestyle. so now, we have grown up a little. At least ostensibly, and have "adult" jobs. it was kinda strange to catch up with these people who used to sling burgers and beer and now are in a position much like mine and doing good things.
i dunno. maybe i was overreacting, but it was good anyway.

i should get used to it. i am going to my sorority 10 year anniversary in two weeks.
yes --- i said sorority. it seems odd. most people who meet me are a little taken aback by the revelation. but, it was a good thing. it was never my whole life, merely a part of it. but i would imagine it will be a similar type deal to the past weekend.

my brother called my parents this weekend. glad to hear he is doing well. at least as well as one can when you are involved in a war.
it has gotten to the point that every time i read/hear the news, my stomach drops. there is always a report of a military death. and you never know until you read where and what branch. with the increasing violence going on, i am not sure what will happen.
plus, the US is now banning certain publications and radio stations. um, did we displace one dictator so we could assume the mantel ourselves? i have this horrible feeling that things are going to continue to deteriorate. and i read today that the joint chiefs are going to ask for more troops to be sent over. all of this taking place WELL after our esteemed president declared the "major combat" over.
of course, now we are so tied into the area that even when bush is out of the office, we will be forced to maintain a presence there. vicious circle in which too many people are dying.

holy gorgeous day batman!

ok-
this is the first day in close to 6 months in which i walked out of the house this AM and really did not need the coat i was wearing.
gorgeous outside. so i walked outside to get lunch today.
this would be an ideal day to play hooky. however, i am working.
odd- me working. on a wednesday.
whatever.


have someone coming over tonight to look at the house. could be a good potential roomie. it is a guy... which i think is actually a good thing. super nice, a teacher and neither one of us would be around that often.
hope it works out. getting towards summer season and closer to julie's wedding. freeing up some funds each month would be a huge help.

what else? not too much. just trying to get the house cleaned up and in order. it kinda sucks because now i have the "vision" of what i want the rooms to be and it takes a little time and $$ but i want it done NOW!
baby steps. i will get there. just gets a little frustrating.

really can't concentrate on anything right now, so i am going to close this out.
later.

one woman UN

It was windy in the Windy City this weekend.
REALLY windy.

but a great weekend. Got hit on by a guy from the Cayman Islands, Scotland and Mexico.
i always have a good time in Chicago.

We stayed with a friend of a friend... but after this weekend, ms heather can consider him more than a friend of a friend. but this guy was a total gentleman. opened doors, took coats, pulled out chairs... a complete host.
but it was weird, i almost felt like it was over the top, when in reality he was just being polite. have we gotten so jaded and used to crap behavior from men that we think that anything that is normally polite is excessive?
but like i said, had a great time.
will be going back in May for a cubbies game. NOW that should be a blast.

found out some shocking news... and not so shocking news today.
matt & danielle have broken up. she is moving out. things just were never right once they moved in... i suspected as much. but apparently he had fallen out of love with her. ouch.
so kinda a weird situation. i guess we shall see how it all plays out.
more later.

big brother is watching

so the network/operations team is at it again.
got the ole' websense filter at work.
here is the latest in "blocked" sites:
The Onion = "Alternative Journals"
Match.com = "Dating & personals"
the entertainment section on CNN = "Entertainment"
monster.com = "Job Search"
and the greatest insult of all...
homestarrunner.com = "Entertainment"

i might just die from that one.
ironically i seem to get the nastiest porn - with pictures - via my email and that does not seem to be a problem.
priorities are all out of wack...


so my brother is in iraq.
now everytime i read about a military death or casualty, my heart sinks a little.
we are a day short of the one year anniversary of the start of the war. and things are getting nasty over there. and they still have not found those blessed WMD. Gee, i wonder why? Maybe because they were not there in the first place?!?
but, fear not good democratic lemmings, our president assures us that the world is a safer place to be.
whatever.
the back tracking this administration is doing on this issue is incredible. one of my favorites, courtesy of our friends at moveon.org and that has not been blocked... yet:
http://www.moveon.org/censure/caughtonvideo/

little donnie rumsfeld eating his own words.
i don't know. we have a president who inflicts his will as just that, his will. is ready to make the bible the new constitution and pays little or no heed to the infrastructure that has kept this country in check for the last 200 + years.

so our option is now a guy who voted to go to war and who voted for the patriot act.

politics.
ugh.

on a much, MUCH lighter note.
my good friend julie sent me the online link for her engagement pictures.
holy crap, they were amazing.
literally, brought tears to my eyes. and i am not an emotional person. i am not even pms-y.
caught the two of them how they are with each other. it was great to see.

happy st. pats

the holiest of holy days is today.
st. patricks.
for me, this is THE holiday.
of course, i am at work. which sucks. but gonna leave early.
hah!

shades of gray

i played hooky on friday.
it was great. not that i did anything exciting, or really anything at all...
but i was not at work.
slept in, did a little shopping...
drank some beers and ended up going to a hockey game.
good times.

oh - happy birthday courtney. even if i am a day late. (i did call)
and happy birthday crystal.

saturday is where my weekend got rather interesting.
so we go out on saturday night. crystals b-day (see above) so we all get together. all is myself, two other friends and a couple. funny thing is the couple is a great couple, but not so much married to each other. but, married to other people.
first bar we stop at, they run into a co-worker.
and the subterfuge begins.

i have always said - rather adamantly actually - that i had a zero tolerance policy on cheating. i have found over the last year, my perspective has changed a bit. there are very few absolutes anymore. and i still know that if someone cheated on me... that would be it. out the door, thanks for playing, have a nice life.
i also believe that i am strong enough to know that if i were to get dangerously close to that situation, i would have enough respect for myself and whomever i was in a relationship with to end it before acting out.
easier typed than done.
i guess i would not want to be considered an accomplice to this whole thing, but in a way, i really am.
ugh. moral dilemma.


so i started spring cleaning this weekend.
and it snowed today
we are under a winter weather warning. offices are closing and i am still here.
but back to the cleaning. got in one of those moods where you just need to throw stuff away.
and i did.
i still have two closets to go through, but i am making progress.
feels good to get rid of crap you know you don't 1) need or 2) use.

i ran into a old co-worker on my day off. he is doing an online paper and looking for an advice columnist.
he thought i would be good at it.
while i am sure that DSM could use a little Sex in the City type shake up, i am not sure the good folk are ready to hear what i have to say.
we will see. although one would have to be having sex in this city to write about sex in the city.
i am already screwed.
pun intended.

out.
gonna use the weather as a reason to bust out, hit the gym and move forward on my spring/late snow cleaning.
plus the new Average Joe: Adam is on tonight.
glutton for punishment after watching the other two.
pathetic.

back from the dead

hello virtual world.
it has been awhile.
quite a long while in fact.
i can fairly sum up my absence in one word:
work

this is all i have done lately. major project has moved into production and hopefully my 60-70 hr. weeks are wrapping up. it will be nice to have my weekends back.
i missed my annual pilgrimage to San Francisco this year for the wine festival. Probably won't be making it to Chicago for St. Pat's (which is a mere week ago by the way)
but...
have tickets to see damien rice in april. that should rock
gonna try and get out to DC in the next month...actually found round trip NON-STOP tickets out of Des Moines. for $213.
understand that it is a great price, but i am excited about the non-stop flight. those are the things of urban legend around here.

i have started working out again. fueled in most part by the humiliating experience that is bridesmaid dress shopping.
i know that i have put on a few lbs this winter... but ouch. getting measured and then hearing what your measurements really mean in terms of sizing... ugh.
so i have begun slow. 3x a week. 35 minute cardio and a light weight session. keeping at that pace for a little bit and will gradually work my way back up. baby steps.
but at least i am doing something.

might have found a roomie. this would be a GREAT thing. looks promising, i should know in about a week if it is a go. gives me time to clean the house. needs it. big time. a little spring cleaning will do us all some good.

oh- and i got into a car accident on the way to work about a week and a half ago. not my fault, and he has no insurance.
NOT a good way to start your day. especially when i had not had any coffee. so i need to get estimates from the body shop... actually 3 for the insurance company (MY INSURANCE COMPANY). but i have had no time with the work thing being all shades of loco.
so this week, will get that taken care of.i am going to guess that my german piece of plastic will cost a pretty penny.
i will keep you posted on this one.


um, and i think i might have a date tonight.
odd really.
rather round about sort of deal. sunday night we get done with all this work crap. it's like 8:30, i am starving and really want to celebrate the fact that this has gone in on time. well, most of the guys i work with are from india, and don't drink. they all went home together. could not get hold of any friends to come meet up with me. so screw it. i go down to the local brew pub, sit at the bar and have a sandwich and a beer. and chat with the bartender as there is not a lot going on in downtown DM on a sunday night.
so i was going to go home, but had another beer -- it was only like 9:45. and then the bar is starting to close. and the bartender keeps giving me beer. so we are chatting blah, blah... and they are going to another bar for some more drinks. he invites me along. so i went.
mentions that he is working the next night, i should stop by. some girlfriends mention going down there after work and so we do.
long story short.. we are supposed to get together for sushi tonight.
we shall see.

so those are the highlights from the last 3 months. seems odd. much more has happened... or maybe it hasn't.
but nonetheless..
i shall be much more diligent.