crazy week.
layoffs.
i have somehow for the 2nd time managed to avoid the chopping block.
so, i get to continue to come to work everyday..unlike about half of my department.

of course now we are all in this frenzied mode of figuring out who is going to do what, when etc.

these types of things always force your hand a little. one of those times you just have to think long and hard about what it is you are doing, where you want to be, stuff like that.
the bitch is that the ecomony is not very forgiving if i come to any conclusions that this is not where i want to be, want to be doing and so on.
ironically, i had just updated my resume on monster last weekend. this was out of the blue, so the timing seems somewhat ironic, almost pre-determined.
time will tell. i will keep doing my job the best i can, and if i get the axe, well i go have a few drinks(quite possibly more than a few) and the next morning, slightly groggy, i begin to figure out what i am doing.
no need to panic yet.

Read Still Life With Woodpecker.
it asks the right questions. not where are the weapons of mass destruction? but questions that count in our day to day existence. what makes love stay? what happened to the golden ball?
read it.
you won't be dissapointed and you might be enlightened.
yum.