Thursday, October 14, 2004

Gray Day #3

so - this is the third day in a row that has been gray, overcast, gloomy and more than a little bit chilly.
Now, i love fall. I really do. But I love the crisp, autumn days with SUN. I mean i am not a sun goddess by any strech of the imagination, but if i don't get some soon i am just going to fade away. which would be pretty impressive given my already pale existence.

what else is going on?
things are developing on the boy front. rather interesting actually. talked to st. louis -- his name is david, for the record. which was great. totally made me smile. i am coninutely amazed at how many things we have in common.
crazy.
we shall see. of course, now everyone wants to know "when are you going to meet him". um, hello. lets not rush into anything. this is me we are talking about.

watched the debates last night. un-impressive. from both sides. i would have liked to have seen kerry get a little more assertive with "W". but we are down to the last 3 weeks. Thanks god. i mean i have an opinion on how i think things should work out, but i cannot wait for all of this to be over for another 3 years.

i have a massage tonight, and at this point, i am just counting the minutes until i go. this gray-ness has taken any energy out of me.



Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Twist of fate...?

So things have gotten pretty interesting round about here. Ok - nothing that dramatic, but good for a change. I went on my date with one of the online boys that lives here in DSM. And he was a nice guy, but I am afraid no sparky-spark. And then, that very night that I got back from the aforementioned sparkless date, I got an email from Mr. St. Louis. Some of you may not remember him. Allow me to refresh your memories....we got along really well, definitely had something going and he met someone locally. I thought no ill of it. Couldn't blame him really. Date someone right in front of you or keep emailing some random a state and a half away. No brainer. But anyway... he let me know that he was back in the "scene" as it were. I really hate that statement. What scene? Are we actors? posing for some ego centric director to tell us where to go? what to do?
rambling again.
apologies.

So we have been emailing like fiends ever since. I am not sure that I can write something to him that is less than at least 4 paragraphs long. And he is the same way. I dunno. It is so weird. We agree on SO much. Have a lot in common. I am just waiting for the bottom to drop out. I mean, it is the jaded bitter woman in me, but come on...seems too easy. We are supposed to talk sometime this week - he is on vacation with friends and wants to call me while on vacation? who does that? I guess we will see where this crazy journey takes me.
So scary, exciting, cool... i really don't know how else to take it.

ok- also started the diet. Lost 7 lbs so far. Not great, but getting there. Also started back to the yoga classes. 3 times a week. Things are going well.

Eeek.
scary when things are going well.